The Restless Poet

I woke with a start this morning that immediately brought me out of my dream. I couldn’t recall it right away and had a hard time understanding why I was so dreadfully sad but I knew I wanted to remember this one. You appeared but there was more to this one. I sat for a few minutes after waking and let my mood send me back to my dream. Bits and pieces of the puzzle started to come together.

We were at a county fair – summer again. A happy part of my dream – brilliant sunshine and warmth. I’m not sure where it was but it was a small one, small enough that I knew you were there. I was there with my mom. I was graced by the presence of two people I love. This was amazing. I very rarely have dreams where she is present. I could feel her walking beside me, our arms touching as we leaned into each other. We were talking and laughing, conversation spilling into the warm air. I was a little distracted though because I had spotted you ahead of us as we were making our way through the entrance gate. I could only see you from the back. You were chatting with others (another common theme) and I could hear your laughter move through the wind. We were approaching you but you didn’t see us. A group had passed between and blocked the view. Mom and I kept walking, she wanted to find good seats at the show we were headed toward.

We made it to the amphitheater and took our seats to wait for the show to begin. We chatted about everything and everyone. We had a lot of catching up to do. I was relaxed and happy but I kept turning to see if you were headed our way. I desperately wanted to introduce you to my mom. Two people that made me happy. I could see you working your way through the crowd, slowly. Weaving in and out of people but not hurriedly. It was too slow though because you never made it to us before I was jolted awake.

My sadness, a combination of things. I didn’t get to speak to you yet again. I didn’t get to introduce you to mom and I couldn’t keep my mom in my presence. I hope I am granted more visits like that one. Oh how I would love to have you both with me right now. Beautiful.